Sometimes it Lasts in Love but Sometimes it Hurts Instead.

I think I speak for everyone who has ever loved and been hurt when I say that I cried whilst listening to this song. It is such a powerful song expressing the feelings of many.
 It brought back alot of feelings I had buried a while ago, not only that but it made me feel scared about having to feel that pain again.

If there are people who do not understand why someone would cry at this, then I'm guessing they have never been in love and I guess in some ways thats lucky as if they've never loved they'll never have to go through the pain of being hurt.

If you know me, or if you've read my blog from the start you'll know what I went through, I thought I'd never be able to let anyone else in, but with time I did and I couldn't be happier. I met Tom a month after things went wrong and at first, I did really like him, but I couldn't open up and let him in completely, I guess when you've loved someone else for so long its hard to fully accept anyone else to begin with. Obviously I had feelings for him, I would never be with someone if I felt nothing, but I was scared to feel more so to begin with I tried distancing myself. Seven months on and I have never been happier or never had anyone treat me as nice as he does.

The moral of this blog is that although you may feel that you'll never be able to love again, or nothing else will be as special, thats far from the truth. In fact the next person you fall in love with will be even more special, because even though you've been hurt, your putting your trust into this person, which trust me, after having your trust destroyed, is the hardest thing you can do and to be able to trust someone else means alot.

 If its meant to be it will work, if its never meant to be then it won't work. Wherever you end up and whoever you end up spending your life with, its fate because in the end your just living the life that was already set out for you ♥

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger ...

Let the Sun Shine.

We are already in the eighth day of the second month, and I still feel as positive as I did at the start, if not more so. This year feels completely different from last year, in fact it couldn't be more different, almost everything about my life has changed, and if im honest, I wouldn't have it any other way. One of the many things I am pleased about recently is the fact that I've got back in contact with friends who I lost contact with and I'm so glad I've done so as I had forgotten all the laughs we used to have.

Recently I had to go through something that could have turned out to be a very big deal but luckily turned out to be nothing. I was so scared and for weeks I was worried, but the situation was handled really well and what made me smile most was that I was told that I was like Simba from the Lion King because I was the smallest person he knows but also the strongest and bravest person - I've never seen myself as brave or confident so it was nice to be told this.

Part of my positivity today was gained from listening to this song followed by walking downstairs opening the outside door and lying on the bench outside with the sun shining on my face, because previous to this song, the sun wasn't shining and in fact it looked miserable outside.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equvoqUT1VM

'Let the sun shine on your face
Don't let your life go to waste'

The rest of the positivity comes from everything else thats in my life right now.