There's no Point in What if's

I was just reading my last blog post and noticed I had written that I was getting stressed over something and that I would possibly explain it in another blog ... well I actually do not remember what it was that was stressing me out, which just shows how something might seem like a big deal at the time, but it's actually very trivial.

People tend to worry about things they really shouldn't worry about - and i'll include myself in that category too. The other night I was on the phone to someone untill three o clock in the morning, both of us had work in a couple hours time but we felt as though we needed to talk about it. The discussion involved me and my boyfriend talking about what to do with our relationship because the next few months are going to be hard because we're both going to be busy and won't be seeing much of each other and there will be a time where we both couldn't talk to each other for a week.

We concluded that the problem isn't with 'us' and were actually both really happy, so the thing is there really is no point in having discussions that involve 'what if' or 'what is going to happen?' because nobody knows. There is no way of determing what the future holds, you can have a good guess but I can assure you, things change ... people change, that's life.

At a time that your feeling content with your life, you may think your life is 'set in stone' and you have a fairly good idea about what your future is going to be like, I know sure did, and look at it now, it couldn't be any more different and I'm happy, the happiest i've ever been in fact.

Basically, what I've learnt is to try not to think about the future too much ... what will be will be.

Today's Horoscope

My horoscope today said this: 

 

Saturn might try to make you moody, but fun-loving Jupiter says that whatever’s bugging you is only temporary. Concentrate on all the good things in your life to help you to quickly shake it off.

 

This is exactly what I was thinking before I read this. I've been so moody these past few days, and stressing out about things that I shouldn't be stressing out about, which I will possibly explain in another blog.  Life is too short, and there are plenty of good things in my life right now.

 

 

 

 

 

Stress for no Known Reason

The last couple days I've been so stressed and moody and I'm not sure why or even if there is a reason. I just feel that I need a change, or something exciting or challenging needs to happen. What kind of change is another question though, I have no idea and would really like some ideas.

Yesterday I came home from work in such a bad mood, I was ok all day but I guess thats because I was constantly busy and I couldn't offload my mood on anyone there. In attempt to cheer my self up and lift myself out of this mood I made myself some rocky road chocolate ... it was very nice and did temporarily cheer me up.

Today was a much better day, i'm smiling again. A few friends have said they want to go on holiday so i'm looking forward to that.

I was on the train on the way to Bristol and was sat in one of the seats with the table in the middle. A man in his mid twenties was sat opposite me, and as he moved his leg he brushed against my leg, he smiled and apologised, just before he did this I was going to move my leg as I was in a really uncomfortable position but to do that i would have brushed against his leg which might have looked a bit odd seeing as he just did the exact same thing to me so me being me I sat there feeling uncomfortable for a good 10 minutes.

One the way home from Bristol there was an extremely loud talking woman whom I couldn't see just hear. I noticed that as she spoke she made an emphasis on the words 'yeah' 'yes' and 'good' which she regularly said in her sentences as yeeeeeah, yeessssss and gooooooooooood. She also had an incredibly annoying laugh, in fact it wasn't even a laugh, she just said ah ha ha ha ah ha ha ha ah ha.

She also got off at Bridgwater ... Bridgwater's finest.

Egg and Mouldy Crusts.

Having a really lazy day today, despite the fact there's plenty of things I should be doing. Planning to go for a run in a bit though, but knowing my lack of fitness i'll probably give up reasonably soon. I just made myself an amazing egg mayonaise sandwich using the eggs from our chickens, but after the first bite, I took a closer look at the sandwich and noticed it had mouldy crusts ... lovely. I started to pull the crusts off and had planned to continue eating it, but the mouldy crusts and the fact that I was getting egg all over my hands in the process of pulling the sandwich apart was somewhat putting me off. You would have thought i'd be used to having bits of food on my hands what with working with children but obviously not. I didn't want the egg to go to waste so i got some bread out of the freezer, toasted it and had a egg mayonaise toast sandwich. After all that the sandwich gave me bad heartburn. However, it was worth the hassle.